Diana Vitantonio

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Advice No More

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Anyone that knows me well knows how I feel about advice.   I don’t believe in it.  The number one reason is that it never leaves the giver or the receiver truly feeling empowered.  If we want to help another or help this world I think we must teach people how to listen to their own guidance.  

And if we truly love someone I think it’s important to not give them advice when we see them in a place of discomfort.   People don't want to be fixed, they crave to be understood.  

 

You have emotions and guidance inside your body that your lover, best friend, parents or anyone for that matter cannot feel.  And when you make decisions for your life based on only what your mind thinks you should do or what you think other people think you should do you create both a war inside and out.   True power is when the heart informs the mind and the wise mind and the heart find an answer together.   Anything else will leave you… torn.

 

Today’s playlist is titled… TORN    

 

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My username is soulactivists

No words, Just Reign

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In this one you are

silent,

so silent

it hurts.

The pain revealed

yet not made here,

so you remind me.

I came to you for

answers 

and you sat there 

so stoic,

it felt emotionless. 

You,

the dispassionate witness.

What moves you?

I didn’t want to know 

you, 

not really.

I avoided you for

so long

and when I least

expected it,

you showed up

when no one else 

did.

So, i breathed you in.

I got used to

keeping you 

at a distance.

Today

I pull you close.

I thought you would

attack me.

My eyes saw you

as a predator.

Now 

i feel the truth,

 you are

God. 

Your presence 

known.

No words,

just

Reign. 

Inspiration Is All Around

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Someone wrote me a message a little ago and asked me a delicious question.  “ Diana, where do you get your inspiration?”  The answer came swiftly like any answer does that comes from a deep down knowing.  I didn’t have to think about.  I didn’t try to figure it out.  It came from deep down.  My answer, “Life inspires me.  All I have to do is open my eyes.”   What I didn’t say then but will now is that life is truly rich with magic and symbolism and meaningfor all of us when we pay attention.  Not just any kind of attention but something called wise attention.  We look through a lens that takes us underneath where the soul can rise up and become the lead.   We hear and see and feel what’s underneath, where the truth lives.   Something is the truth because it’s true always.  This yoga style asks us to do just that.  It asks us to go into what’s underneath the practice.  It asks us to go underneath our own masks and it asks us to become one with all of the elements, and all of ourself.   It asks us not to judge or push away any of our feelings and because of that It produces a healing that lets the willing live and breathe wholeness.  We become the earth, the water, the air, the fire and the ether.  We don't just say the prayer, we become the prayer.  And the prayer is always to let love lead us, and guide, inform us andto live through us.  We look deep down here and what we find here is gold. 

Take That Leap

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There is no such thing as not knowing.  You always know.  And your guidance to move is a feeling that something is off. 

 

Whether it be in your work or any relationship, trust what you feel.  When you say "I don't know what to do." What you are really saying is I do know and it will be hard. 

 

When you don't trust your guidance and move with it,  you block your creativity and your ability to spontaneously co-create.  You are saying... not now, when I'm ready.  And when exactly is that? 

 

What is always true is that when you get a feeling to move on, there will ALWAYS be something waiting for you.  What you won'tget is a bop over the head and a falling from the sky of what that is.  This life is all about personal inner power and faith. 

 

Is that something youwant?  If that's a yes... 

 

Take that LEAP.  And trust you are being held and guided. 

 

From love. 

 

I Met Love This Year

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i met love this year

the real one

no masks 

no disguises  

real 

was his name

in every way he

showed that truth 

my heart melted 

when i let him in

a heart 

which once 

had hardened 

from life

my walls came 

down 

love showed me 

how to love myself

because love 

knew how to love 

me

and himself 

love saw

the truth 

and looked me in

the eyes like 

no fear could have 

or ever did 

it was different

it was precious 

love stayed 

even when i didn’t 

and showed me 

my weaknesses

love didn’t pressure or judge

love simply loved

it played no games

yet love hurt me

yes it hurt me

deeply 

because love knew 

itself 

love was whole 

so i wasn’t needed

love took away everything 

i held tight 

and love brought me 

into the depths of 

my deepest fears

and eventually love 

let me go

without a fight 

he just let go

and i was left 

with nothing

but me 

and this time

i noticed

i was still loved

but it no longer 

lived 

inside him 

it was 

inside 

me

loved moved in

when it left 

me without.

Love Looks Like

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Love looks like the darkest night

with rolls of thunder

so loud 

the sound 

rebounds like waves 

pulsing through 

your body

for far longer than 

you remember

possible

Love looks like the ending

you never wanted 

that ripped you open

as your red poured out

exposed and vulnerable

Love feels like the heart 

pounding when you decide

to face your fears

and let go of the you  

of yesterday 

Love looks like

the soft eye gaze 

that stays 

no matter what the emotion

Love looks like the fire

the one that hurts and 

boils your waters

the one that brings you to 

the No

the boundary you should have always made

That’s what Love looks like. 

I Was Born Breathless

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I was born breathless. 

Literally. 

My mother reminds me this often on my birthday.   This year she looked at me and said “you were having trouble breathing.”   Meaning, I was breathless.  

What does that mean?  It’s when you feel like you no longer have control of your breath.   The breath is quite wild, actually. 

I came earlier than they expected that day.  Six weeks to be exact.  My lungs weren’t fully developed so I was sent away from my mother to another hospital.  And it was there I recovered.  I rebounded.  My breath came back.   As it always does. 

I’ve had many breathless moments since then some by conscious choice and some not.  I have experienced the edge of both fear and love there.   I have thought I would die there.  I have felt reborn there.  I have found a way to pray and be BIG there.  I have touched my pain gently here.  I have found my greatest joy there.  “There” is where the fire lives.  The fire burns there.  And it is that fire I became and continue to become. Everyday, I choose it. 

These moments, these breathless moments have made me brave.   They have made me strong.  They have made me dig deep and ask myself to show up for my life no matter what I’m feeling so I can count of myself.  They have made me question my beliefs.  They have made me trust my own voice and soul regardless of how many people tell me no.  They remind me that I am vulnerable and i am not in control.  They have made me the person I am today.

The word breathless means vulnerable.

I was born this way. 

My life is a gift.  

And that gift will be shared.   

I was born breathless.  

And I will choose to live that way.  

 

Love,

Diana 

Torn

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Torn

at sea

in a ship 

made for 

different waters

I reach 

for your 

hand

you take it

along with 

my eyes

together we

make room for 

all the emotions

“Can I hold you

before I go?”

I ask 

you lean into me

our embrace

a long kiss goodbye

at the end 

you whisper

“Take me with you”

Trust

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we met at our secret place

doing the same thing

we did the last time

letting all our colors 

be seen

loving each other

in a special way

the way we do it

feels different 

we both know the importance 

of keeping it wild

with no rules

except 

one

this time

the sign read “Trust”

 

 - On the Day We Did It Different

 

 

 

Loving all of you,

Diana

 

Gone

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Gone 

that’s what you are

you are gone

there is nothing there

nothing left

the picture is bare

the drum beats slowly

the door of my heart 

swung open

you are free

from me

because I released you

I loved you

I feared you

and now 

I breathe 

forgiveness withyou

that’s the final gift 

only I can feel

your face has 

haunted me for years

I carried you with me 

the weight of 1000 tons 

on my shoulders

the burden of your violence

the power you no longer have

and the fear you still run from

I let it go

In love

In flames

our story 

burns

you go

When

 

I don’t need you anymore. 

 

 

In Love,

Diana

Your Love Stays

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in this one 

you watch me

from a distance 

yet your eyes

feel so close

like when 

we kiss

the space

between

that delicious 

rebound

I can feel

that space 

now

where

our eyes 

meet

and time 

stops

and you 

hold mine

with your

gentle

strength

it is you

i feel in

my bones

with every 

breath

your 

love

stays

 

 

I love you,

Diana 

 

This Pain Is Love

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pain in my belly

what do you say

I would say 

this pain is love

from the highest place within

it requires a faith

in life

do you know why you cry

my dear

what wound keeps you in battle

with your sadness

What is your trigger

and will you heal

if what is required 

is to simply feel it

all of it

If you say yes

bring them up

your emotions

bring them up

all of them

for healing

hold them all with love

be the mother 

sit with the tantrums

the screams

and understand

love helps you feel this pain 

so you can let it go

my child 

you have been holding 

this pain in your belly

for far too long

It is time

It is time

 

To be free. 

 

 

 

 

Holding your hand,

Diana

 

Land Of Dreams

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Eyes bright

in the morning

you sleep easy

and deep

now 

you remember 

a place 

the land of unfinished business

where sleep doesn’t exist

and the children are left

alone and ignored

healing begins by

placing both eyes 

on the whole 

all of it

all the way there

into you

you must go

to listen 

and feel 

the river

She will reveal the 

truth

follow it 

and 

return

to the land 

of dreams.

The Dead Don't Dance

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 I reach my hand for yours

Palms touch

as you ask me to dance

Your hands cold as ice

A voice inside me

whispers with certainty

“  your hands are 

 an extension of your heart”

The truth resonates

That was the first flag

I noticed

There is no other color to call it 

Except RED 

You took the lead and asked me 

to trust you 

And then our dance began 

We came together 

You pulled me in 

I gave myself all of you

You only saw part of me

 My eyes on your eyes 

as our bodies come together

you disappear  

Your heart disappears  

Your body is here but you’re not in it

Your mind rules 

You live in your head

You are brilliant I will say that

You are have many gifts

The feminine isn’t one

I can feel the war inside

I will sit with you

if you are afraid to be alone

Will you take my hand?

I burned for this

I stayed in the fire and made it my home

For this 

As a prayer to feel what is real 

For me

And for you

Love is real 

Yet you don’t love me

You need me and as long as you need 

You can’t love me 

Because you will fear me leaving

So you push me away

by trying to control me

I will say no

I have seen the darkest of dark

I’ve taken the vow

And I won’t break it

I choose to feel it

 All of it 

No matter how much is scares me

I won’t leave 

I won’t leave me

I will get on my knees with you

There’s nothing you can feel that will scare me

I’ve met the prostitute

I’m listened to the child

scream in pain and fear

I have met the anger who sabotages all things

I have healed the victim 

I’ve awakened the artist

and the lover

I’ve burned in it all

But you can’t feel that

Because you don't feel 

You think 

You think I’m the woman I was 

five years ago

I’m not 

I’ve been through hell since then

Hell changes you or 

it pulls you down deeper

I rise 

In the flames

And I will stand lay here with you

But I won’t stand alone for you

I won’t let you be my sometimes lover

 

 

Today I Begin

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Today I begin 

Because my heart pulls me in

It pulls me into my life

and asks me to trust,

have faith and believe 

in myself

Today I begin  

So I can live and breathe

the truth 

Which is 

that I create the life 

I choose to live

and that am I enough

to live it

More than enough

In fact

Speaking of that 

Today I begin so I can say enough 

to the story that lies 

and says I failed, I’m failing,

and it isn’t working out

Today I begin

 because life is too 

short to be shy

and it’s also too short to settle,

and quit 

or stop growing

Life is too beautiful

to carry the weight of shame and regret 

So today i begin

 Because I am a

firestarter, a joy bringer and I 

believe in living my passions

And this is one of them

Today I begin because I’m scared

Like, first day of school scared.

So I walk towards my fear

 I will feel it all and get close. 

That’s what i do

To love myself best

Today I begin 

because something important

strengthens when you step into the unknown

and start something you have very  

little skill at

You expose your deepest truths

Today I begin 

to push the limits of

 my old story and what I thought

was definitive

actually wasn’t definitive at all 

Here I begin to be seen

vulnerable,  exposed

and naked

So I may stop fearing myself

 because I will see myself

And understand her

all of her

Not just the adult part

Today I begin

because I know 

 My soul needs this 

 

Love,

Diana 

There's a Lioness Down The Hallway

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I've seen that face before
The face I keep finding
In my nightmares
Disguised as dreams of love
You showed me that face
For the last time
I won’t choose this anymore
 I’ve seen that face before
It never changes
Or moves
it's stuck
like you.
You're a mask
A face
A head
No body.
You have
No
Body
You seem powerful
But I see you
You've given all your power away
And so you are just scared
To feel
What you did
And what you didn't do
I think you are more
afraid to feel what you didn't do
You never found the strength
To heal
And so you continue
to wake up  every morning
and pretend but
Clothes don’t make the man
Or the lion
I’ve seen that face before
It comes out every time
 the lioness comes close
You can feel her and you don't want to
You have worked far too hard at numbing.
And there she is
All emotion, unpredictable
And wild
You can’t control her
And you won't accept God to be wild
And so you think you have a right
to annihilate Her.
You put on your lion’s mask and wait
You roar. 
You spit.
You throw her down the stairs.
You punch her in the face
Once with your fist and
A thousand more times with your words
I've seen that face before
screaming in rage
that she deserves your violence
No
No more
You tried to remove Her
You didn't succeed
And I just removed you
I don't accept your kind of love. 
Love, Diana
 

I met my mother when I was 37

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I met my mother when I as 37

She came as a surprise to me

I don't know how she found me

I thought I did well hiding

 I think she heard my silent screams

That rose from the storms in my chest

My mother

She sat and waited two full days

As I crossed my arms and contracted my face

She waited until i was ready to speak

She asked me how I felt and when  

I screamed in fear 

She  placed her hand on my heart

My mother

With compassionate eyes spoke softly

 I understand you've been scared

She asked me what I needed 

And never shamed me for my answer

She listened to everything I said  

She sat with me for days

She played with me 

And she let me play what I wanted to play

Regardless of my talent or if I would later make money doing it

So together my mother and I 

Dance

Sing

Color

And

Write 

She knows those are my favorites things 

My mother listens to my pain

When no one else dares to

On that day she came 

She sat there as I screamed

And screamed and screamed

 At her

I told her I hated her 

She said she understood my anger

I could tell she by her face she was telling 

The truth

She stayed with me

And she's still here

She hasn't left me since

I met my mother when I was 37

Her hand is found at the end of my wrist

Music Monday!!! Special Dedication and Appreciation Addition <3

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It's Music Monday!!!

 

This week is my special addition and appreciation playlist!!!   Please join me on Spotify.   This week's playlist is titled "The Queens"

 

Something really special happened for me this year.   I rediscovered my childhood JOY back into my movement and because of that I discovered a love for my practice like never before.   This joy led me into one of the most powerfully successful years of my life as a  yoga teacher and a soul coach.   This year has been a huge year in my own personal growth and I want to honor and show my deepest appreciation to these 3 women, the young women who in their presence I became changed. 

 

Kristi Randel, Claire Alano, and Natalie Edgell, thank you for all you do and who you are.  I set out this year to mother my own self so fiercely that I was beyond picky with who I would spend my time with.   I was shamelessly selfish in what I wanted to practice and with whom.   I chose you.   You become my 3.  My 3 inspirations.

 

As I set out to move to Cleveland, Ohio next month  I'm leaving you three women completely changed.    You all changed me.  I will carry you with me and what you taught me forever. 

 

Kristi, you inspire me so fully to take care of my body so that  I can be as much of a badass athlete as you.  You amaze me !!!  And you are one of the best natural empowerment coaches I have ever seen.    So beautiful babe. 

 

Claire, Thank you for always taking me to the Club.  No one dances on that bike like Claire!!!  The hair flips my girl!     I am a dancer in your presence and that feels so damn good.    Thank you for working with me one on one.  I'm a better yoga teacher because of your work with me. 

 

Natalie,  It was you that re-lit the fire in my heart for yoga.   I was so far away from that feeling when I met you.  So incredibly far.   Now, I can forever have this feeling.  I will always remember it.  

 

This is not your average girl power playlist and these aren't your average girls. 

 

LOVE YOU GODDESSES <3

 

Diana